Mohamedou Ould Slahi: One Year of Freedom, and the Uncensored Version of “Guantánamo Diary”

28.10.17

Mohamedou Ould Slahi (aka Salahi) as he appears on his Twitter account.Please support my work as a reader-funded journalist! I’m currently trying to raise $2500 (£2000) to support my writing and campaigning on Guantánamo and related issues over the next three months of the Trump administration.

 

I wrote the following article for the “Close Guantánamo” website, which I established in January 2012, on the 10th anniversary of the opening of Guantánamo, with the US attorney Tom Wilner. Please join us — just an email address is required to be counted amongst those opposed to the ongoing existence of Guantánamo, and to receive updates of our activities by email.

Just over a year ago, one of Guantánamo’s most celebrated prisoners, Mohamedou Ould Slahi, was released from the prison and sent back to his home country, Mauritania, after a review process at Guantánamo — a Periodic Review Board — recommended his release in July 2016.

Shamefully, this was over six years after a US federal court judge ordered his release, after Slahi’s lawyers submitted a habeas corpus petition on his behalf. In April 2010, Judge James Robertson found that the government “had failed to establish that what looked suspicious in his case — primarily, the fact that he was related to senior Al-Qaeda member Abu Hafs, and, while living in Germany, had met some of the 9/11 hijackers and had helped them to visit Afghanistan for military training — was actually evidence of involvement with Al-Qaeda.”

The government, however, refused to accept Judge Robertson’s ruling, and appealed, and in November 2010 the D.C. Circuit Court vacated that ruling, sending it back to the lower court to be reconsidered, where, as I described it in an article about Slahi’s case in April 2016, “it has languished ever since, mocking all notions of justice every day it has remained unaddressed.”

The shame of Slahi’s case, however, revolved around two other aspects of his story — the first is that he was subjected to a specific torture program at Guantánamo, approved by defense secretary Donald Rumsfeld, that was so horrible that when military prosecutor Lt. Col. Stuart Couch, assigned to prosecute Slahi in a military commission trial, found out about it, he was so sickened that he resigned. Moreover, the torture “broke” Slahi to such an extent that, as the Washington Post explained in 2010, he started telling his captors whatever they wanted to hear. They then gave him special treatment, holding him apart from the general population, along with another allegedly useful informant, both of whom were allowed privileges forbidden to other prisoners — they grew mint for tea, for example, and Slahi, in spite of the profound reservations any objective observer would have about the genuine value of the information he gave to his torturers, was, as a reward for his cooperation, allowed to write.

The second aspect of his story that shames the US is that what Slahi wrote — in the summer and fall of 2005 — was electrifying, so much so that his lawyers sought to publish it. Years of wrangling with the government’s censors ensued, but in January 2015, to huge acclaim, Slahi’s memoir, Guantánamo Diary, was published, an account of his abduction and torture that, despite his experiences, is bursting with intelligence, compassion and an extraordinary sense of humor.

The shame, of course, is that an acclaimed, best-selling author, who had humiliated the US by showing them the truth and doing so in an extraordinarily eloquent manner, then continued to be imprisoned for nearly another two years. Had any other country done the same — continued to imprison a best-selling author, who had never been charged or tried — the outcry would have been immense, but because it was America, the great hypocrite in chief, everyone was supposed not to notice.

Since his release, Slahi has been an irrepressible presence on social media, and, to commemorate the first anniversary of his release, a new edition of Guantánamo Diary has been published, with the many redactions that the US insisted on finally removed by Slahi himself and his editor Larry Siems, who worked hard at reassembling what Siems’ government had sought to hide. See here for the US edition.

Slahi also wrote a wonderful account of his first year of freedom for the ACLU, which sought his release for many years, and we’re pleased to cross-post it below. We hope you have time to read it, and will share it if you find it useful.

My Guantánamo Diary, Uncensored
By Mohamedou Ould Slahi, ACLU, October 23, 2017

Mohamedou Ould Slahi was released one year ago from the prison at Guantánamo Bay, after 14 years without charge or trial. This week, the best-selling memoir he wrote from prison was rereleased — with the U.S. government’s redactions removed.

If I wanted to, I could put my pen down right now, close my office door behind me, and go for a long walk outside.

Today in Nouakchott, Mauritania, it is terribly hot and dry, so that would not be the wisest choice, but freedom is having that option. And freedom is choosing to write instead, not because my life depends on it, but because these days, thank God, it finally doesn’t.

A year ago this week, a U.S. military cargo plane touched down on this city’s arid runway and I was escorted, unshackled, down the airplane’s ramp and toward a group of government officials. With each step I pulled farther ahead of my American guards, farther away from the territory of bondage, and toward the territory of freedom.

Hours later, a car turned onto the street of the house where I grew up and I was swarmed by family members and supporters. And then I was standing inside the house, just a few feet away from where I sat one day when I was 11, listening to the radio as they announced names of children from around the country who had made it into high school.

Getting into high school was a big deal back then: There were few slots, and many who passed all their classes still did not make the cut. Those who managed had their names printed in the military dictatorship’s official newspaper and read over the air for the whole country to hear. My family did not even know I had taken the admissions test, because most students took it when they were 13, but I couldn’t wait. Standing in that room for the first time in 15 years, I flashed back to that moment, hearing the radio announcer mispronounce my last name and seeing the shocked look on my sister’s face.

But I don’t think my family was all that surprised. As a child, I always wanted to teach and write, and after school I would gather the neighborhood kids whose parents could not send them to school and re-create the lessons I’d received that day, using walls as my blackboard. I also had a minor compulsion for writing: I wrote things down anywhere and everywhere, and more than once I was embarrassed when friends found my intimate ideas scribbled in the margins of my schoolbooks.

That afternoon, back in my home, I held a copy of “Guantánamo Diary” for the first time. My lawyers had shown me photographs of the book on the shelves of bookstores in several cities and languages, and they were able to bring me a photocopy of my text, with all of the government’s redactions. But while I was in Guantánamo, I could not see the book itself.

Censorship is a familiar thing in Mauritania. I remember my mother telling my older brothers not to discuss politics, for fear the walls would hear. In my country, we’re used to having things kept hidden in the name of national security. What still shocks my family and friends was that the censorship in Guantánamo Diary wasn’t just in the Arabic edition. It came directly from the American original, which meant the information was being kept from the American people.

When I wrote the manuscript that became Guantánamo Diary in 2005, I had all but disappeared. I was in an isolation hut, the same one I had been dragged into two years before during my months-long torture. For four years, the U.S. government had shut me up and done the talking for both of us. It told the public false stories connecting me to terrorist plots, and it kept the public from hearing anything from me about my life and how I had been treated.

Writing became a way of fighting the U.S. government’s narrative. I wanted to bring my case directly to the people. I wasn’t sure if the pages I was writing and giving to my lawyers would ever become a book. But I believed in books, and in the people who read them; I always had, since I held my first book as a child. I thought of what it would mean if someone outside that prison was holding a book I had written.

Now, incredibly, I was holding that book myself — though in a censored, broken form. And I was meeting many people who had read it. The first thing many of them asked me was when they would be able to read the book in an uncensored version. So in the months after my release, I worked with my editor Larry Siems on what we came to call a “restored edition” of “Guantánamo Diary,” because it often felt like we were trying to restore an old building.

I worked in a copy of the book, making notes above the redactions and in the margins, and then I would take a break, go home, eat lunch, and remember even more. I found myself writing and remembering, and writing some more, and then Larry and I did what we were denied the opportunity to do the first time “Guantánamo Diary” was published: We worked together to edit these censored sections. The result was published in the U.S. last week. As with the original, uncensored, and handwritten manuscript, this is as close as I can come to the truth as I experienced it and understand it, in the best form I can express it.

Here, for example, is a passage from the new book that the U.S. government for some reason thought necessary to redact in the original. It describes a scene from a polygraph test I was forced to take while at Guantánamo:

“I noticed an ant walking up the wall, and then many more leading and following her. I learned to follow ants in the Mauritanian secret prison, watching them until they left the cell and me behind. I watched this one climb, going about her daily business and not realizing the drama that was unfolding before her very eyes.”

A previously censored page from Mohamedou Ould Slahi's memoir, "Guantanamo Diary"To the left is a page with redactions and restored text in gray (click on the image to enlarge it):

Restoring this broken text has been about seeing things that someone wanted hidden. Sometimes that someone was me. When I received the photocopy of my book in Guantánamo I stayed up all night reading it, afraid I had written something I would regret. And yes, there were things that embarrassed me. I was especially ashamed of my habit, when I was young, of making up sarcastic nicknames for people I met. The Jordanian intelligence agent who oversaw my rendition operation was not “Satan,” as I named him in the original manuscript; he is a human being, with a full life and a family. That kind of name-calling is someone I was, not someone I am now.

In that sense, reading what I wrote 12 years ago really is like reading an old diary. Sometimes I’d laugh, and sometimes I got very upset. But mostly I just smiled at my own silliness and learned more about who I was, and who I am.

Who am I now, thanks to my lawyers, my family and friends, my publishers, and my readers, is a free man: a free man who can make the choice to stay inside on a hot, hot day and write about the enormous, beautiful world outside my door.

Andy Worthington is a freelance investigative journalist, activist, author, photographer, film-maker and singer-songwriter (the lead singer and main songwriter for the London-based band The Four Fathers, whose music is available via Bandcamp). He is the co-founder of the Close Guantánamo campaign (and the Countdown to Close Guantánamo initiative, launched in January 2016), the co-director of We Stand With Shaker, which called for the release from Guantánamo of Shaker Aamer, the last British resident in the prison (finally freed on October 30, 2015), and the author of The Guantánamo Files: The Stories of the 774 Detainees in America’s Illegal Prison (published by Pluto Press, distributed by the University of Chicago Press in the US, and available from Amazon, including a Kindle edition — click on the following for the US and the UK) and of two other books: Stonehenge: Celebration and Subversion and The Battle of the Beanfield. He is also the co-director (with Polly Nash) of the documentary film, “Outside the Law: Stories from Guantánamo” (available on DVD here — or here for the US).

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9 Responses

  1. Andy Worthington says...

    When I posted this on Facebook, I wrote:

    My latest article, a cross-post, with my own commentary, of a wonderful article written for the ACLU by Mohamedou Ould Slahi, former Guantanamo prisoner, former US torture victim, and best-selling author, to mark the first anniversary of his release from Guantanamo, and the publication of the unredacted version of his memoir, “Guantanamo Diary.” A wonderful little journey with Mohamedou, particularly poignant for a writer, as he reflects on the importance of writing and of books in his life. I love the opening lines: “If I wanted to, I could put my pen down right now, close my office door behind me, and go for a long walk outside. Today in Nouakchott, Mauritania, it is terribly hot and dry, so that would not be the wisest choice, but freedom is having that option. And freedom is choosing to write instead, not because my life depends on it, but because these days, thank God, it finally doesn’t.” Thanks, Mohamedou. You are an inspiration to everyone fighting to close Guantanamo!

  2. Andy Worthington says...

    Angela Gipple wrote:

    Thank you, Andy, for all you do and are. Much admiration and gratitude.. Angie

  3. Andy Worthington says...

    Thanks, Angie. Your support is greatly appreciated!

  4. Andy Worthington says...

  5. Andy Worthington says...

    When I posted this yesterday, Mohamedou sent this message on Twitter:

    Andy you’ve been always a voice for justice and the rule of law.
    bless you!

    https://twitter.com/MohamedouOuld/status/924038074933436417

  6. Andy Worthington says...

    I wrote:

    Thank you, Mohamedou. I’m truly honored to have some of your powerful words directed my way!

  7. Andy Worthington says...

    Monique D’hoohge wrote:

    he seems utterly sweet, such a damn shame all those years were stolen from him

  8. Andy Worthington says...

    Yes, really, Monique. He has forgiven everyone who wronged him, because he is aware that holding on to hatred can only harm him. How’s that for pointing out the unpalatable truth about the vengeance that has driven the US since 9/11?

  9. Gathering Gitmo – Africa Answerman says...

    […] There are parts of the diary which are boring. They happen to be, by the way, some of the parts that were redacted: […]

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